I wake up at 6 in the morning, way too early, so I keep rolling in my bed until 9 and get up for breakfast. After that, I turn on my computer, check the mails, notifications, everything. When I finish my coffee, and if there are not tasks I need to do considering the Association and organizing, it is time to head out and grab an ax. For the past five days, this is what I was doing. Yes, it is a great workout and the weather is fine, but tomorrow we are to expect rain and first snow this year. I am not overwhelmed by it, because I haven’t finished my job with firewood preparation. I am halfway there. It takes time because daytime is short and I am not cranking up the gear to speed it up. I don’t know, I am tired and out of shape, so this takes a toll on me. I keep working at a steady speed and look forward to wrapping it up.
Writing process and editing are a no go. When the night comes, I can barely do a paragraph of text before I lose focus. This keeps happening from time to time. I may have burned out, or there is something else going on. I am fed with a lot of information and I haven’t stopped to give it a rest for about two years. Yes, I make a pause for a day, but this is not what kicks me back in the game. For now, I am having a hard time doing my own work and dedicate myself to novels. On one hand, I want to keep going, but on the other, I realize this overwork is not helping me do that.
Whenever I want to rest, a list of things pops in my head that tells me how many projects are pending review and work. You knock one out, two more rises to bite a piece of your day. When I spoke to my chief about it, well, we kind of agreed that this is a new reality for me, as this overwork is his life for since he can remember.
One good news about it. The Association made an online store for books, so our work is starting to pay off. I stay humble and try to do my best. How’s everything doing with you, my Commanders in Quill? Any new thing you’d like to brag about?