I came to a realization that the stuff I am doing is not as what I thought them to be. Let’s face it, this is going to be another rant post, so you can skip this, or stay tuned to see a Slavic guy losing his shit.
0K, first thing first. There are not many people who read. This means, that my efforts with the YouTube channel to promote reading and my stories has failed. Now, I am in this business for a month or so and nothing comes that quickly. This said, I am really running low on inspiration and hope to achieve something.
Yes, I enjoy writing, but I can’t live from that. Not now, but maybe in the future if I finally break the ice. And to do that, I must say that nothing makes it any easy. For a writer to live, he needs to be doing something else for money and keep writing as a hobby. I respect that up to some point. It is a long way up and to get there, there are some rugged cliffs you need to climb over. After you’ve done that, its smooth sails from there on out.
Me? I am really far from that and god damn it, I am tired.
I wrote a New Year’s resolution and so far, I got nowhere with my plans, again. I can’t figure out where am I doing wrong. But there is a simple answer to that. It’s not that I am making a fault content and that I am not trying enough, or that I am not being productive enough. You know what is the problem? People don’t read enough and they are not that interested in reading. It’s that simple. People I talk to are not into books and to find people who are into books, I really need to get going and perform a miracle.
To do some freelance, I can’t get my UpWork profile running, because that platform is overly saturated with ghostwriters. My skills are not supreme, therefore I am not in the league to compete with that stiff competition.
So, what do I do? I make a Patreon, but catch this – I am not as successful as others. Again, I preach to the wrong crowd and that’s why I am destined to fail.
This said I decided to gather all of the best stories from my blog, stuff them together and work on that draft to produce a good quality collection of short stories. After I do that, I’ll be actively looking for a publisher, someone who is trustworthy and tries to set up my life.
Any pieces of advice and suggestion are most welcome. If you are a writer, I’d like to hear your story to publishing. If you used CreateSpace and Amazon, let me know how did that go and what’s the catch to make it out there. If you are a freelancer, what is a good way to start and what is a reliable platform? If you are a manager and promoter, share some advice on how to reach a bigger audience and where to look for them.
I am really desperate here guys. I don’t know if I should just stop what I was doing and really try something completely different. I’m seriously considering to stop writing. And don’t encourage me to write. I am not asking for compassion here. I ask for guidance.
And I realize it’s January, the most depressive month in a year.